okayyyyyy...
tis is gna b dryyyy
anw, i've decided i wna quit co and join track
if the lights are green on all 3 sides.
ya get wat i mean
the tchr's say yes, n the parents say yes.
cos frankly, i dnt think staying in co will do me much good
particularly since i'm thinking of track whn i'm in co?
like physically in co but mentally in track?
o.o
not tat i hate co
or it's bad
or i dnt like that commitment
or anything.
it's srsly a great cca.
i mean like srsly.
if any yr 1's read my blog, srsly, go for co,
if u're choosing any PA
BUT the thing tat made me decide,
the main thing
is tat
i cnt survive in PA or UG
cos for my whole primary sch life,
i've never ever done anything like performing
ive been like doing sports for like forever
and it practically makes me ME.
just like stella cnt live w/o bball
i cnt live w/o sports
and to stop track
i'll justt be killing half of myself
cos it's not like i can get ex netball team to have a game frequently
or not like i have a lot of time to play bball or vball
esp since those days tat i have time
the trackers and bballers have trng
so nobody to play also
and if i continue staying in PA
i'll lose myself
and all the stress and frustration is just gna keep exploding
cos idk
but sports is kinda like my outlet for these stuff
and i'll keep moodswinging
which i think eliss, stella and hongy will get fed up with
of course thr's other reasons why i wna quit
or stay
but i cnt just let go of part of my life tat has made up my personality.
so yupp!
just read this somewhere tho
it just got me thinking
but i haven't changed my decision yet.
'The best thing is what u think shld be done, the right thing is what needs to be done - when u think not just of you and how u feel, but also the extra stuff - who else is involved and wat's happened before and wat the rules say.'
I noe for sure tat wat i'm choosing is the best thing
but i dnt noe if it's the right thing
and i dnt noe if it's better to do the best thing
or the right thing.
i noe tat my decision to quit co will make ppl unhappy
particularly 2 parties.
my parents
they'll b disappointed and unhappy
cos they wanted me to take co to help w my MEP
and they dnt think track will do me any good
but obviously, i think otherwise
and the other party will proly b co ppl and mrwong???
idkkkkk.
cos apparently, our batch is the first batch tat his kinda managing
or bringing up...
yea. and i'm quitting? o.o
and the co members cos idk y. they just dnt want me too
i didn't ask for thier personal opinions
not even close to thm
at least not rlly
but i think i noe them well enough to anticipate their response
and i kinda think tat they're gettting sick of me
ponning co, sometimes to go for track o.o
oh well.
parents do have a big influence tho
i just hope it doesn't make me change direction
or be caught in a crossroad again :O
so anw.
td right?
actl, i hate td's timetable
all the subs are like so sucky.
except mayb maths and bio
they're the oni 2 subs i still kinda like?
math for pop quiz
i sit down thr stare stare stare at the ques
waste my time sia
in the end actl very easy
n i think i'm like damn tyco or smth larh
last yr maths like failing
cnt possibly be like this yr suddenly shoot up like crazy.
thn after tat did standard form
and it's like the MOST BORING CHAPTER EVER-.-
i dnt even understand how it can kinda aid us in life or smth
understand the concept but dnt noe how to apply it in everyday life
o.o
and the modulus wdv thingy seems so pointless
even tho it's easy to grasp :O
and ohmigosh larh
td mr wong suddenly went like
saying some stuff abt us like
'ya, u noe u all r like my kids like tat. all so young. u noe horh, i'm old enough to be ur father.'
i was like OMG blink.
thn some ppl started calculating sia
in the end we came up w tis
mrwong is like 27 tis yr
so we're 14
if he's our 'father'
thn meaning his 'wife' gave birth too us 14 yrs ago
which is whn he was 13
and thn right
ppl get married also cannot so fast give birth
so let's say it takes 3 yrs
so he got married whn he was 10
thn before get married must also go for date
so normally the least ppl date is 2-3 yrs i think
so meaning, he started dating his 'wife' whn he was 7-8
which is so ttly -.-
yahhh
and it sounds gross.
wdv! who cares.
n thn ltr math ended
thn science
rozana came in
n went too her wdv slides abt bacteria
with all the weird weird sci names
tat's bio for u
but i think it's the weird names tat make it cool lorh!!!!!
oh n eliss refused to go and beg for her phone bk frm rozana
but srsly, i think rozana'a being unreasonable
even teo chor howe will return ur phone latest at the end of the day de lorh
i was thinkin tat it wnt do to be like pissed
with rozana for confiscating eliss's phone n not returning
BUT THEN.
e other day i wanted to msg eliss
like rlly wna tlk to her
AND I CNT CONTACT HE BEC SHE DOESN'T HAVE HER PHONE
lao
it's super irritating sia
TSK.
nvm
thn recessssssss
go whr arh?
i think cafe bah
oh, no.
me and liss went to canteen
eat some sushi stuff
thn bk to class for PC
PC quite boring
it always is anw
except for the angel&mortal game:D
hahahhahaha.
hongy so sui.
LOL.
thn i was msg-ing in class
made my decision on changing cca to track
told my mom
and immediately got some rainstorm of unhappy comments
frm her
lao.
she made me damn pissed just through sms
pissed and emo
cos i srsly dnt feel like gg hm quarrel with her
and she VERY APPARENTLY dnt want me to quit
after PC went to the toilet
cried a bit
feel super sad larh
i mean they cnt even accept my decision with grace?
or at least dnt yell at me
it's not like i wna make my parents upset or anything
but i think they shld, well, respect my decision
n thn plpus they whole day bu shuang with me
it's ike gg home to a foreign place that's just NAMED home but doesn't FEEL home
:(((((((((((((((((((((((
fgt abt it larh
i think i'm better alr
thx hongy, liss n stella
but sometimes i feel like killing myself bec of tat kind of stuff
like the whole world is unhappy with me:((
tat's why i like staying in sch until damn late i guess
my friends make me feel btr.
anw
aft tat LA.
went back class late tan not happy, i guess
thn after tat in class the whole class keepp
playing with the plow word.
one say it's (plo)
the other person say it's (p-lao)
thn others say it's (pu-lau)
until ms tan damn confused lol
ownnnnneeeddddd
thn chi
didn't pay attention
most of the part
o.o
thn lesson over lo.
thn well stay bk till 6.45
organising some stuff from 2 plus to 5.35
o.o
hahaha
anw, tmr gna be sucky
like my erhu cher is DEFINITELY gna b unhappy w me
bec i didn't parc much
wanted to prac like evryday
thn my mom kept saying stuff tat piss me off
it's either i go yell back or keep my mouth shut
so i choose to ren inside me
and keep my mouth shut
but if i bu shuang
play instrument horh
i can just make ur ear pain playing the piano
n playing erhu arh?
i think i will just get damn frustrated
thn pull until the strings break i not surprised.
lollll.
now doing last min aural
:((((((((((((((((
shall try to finish o.o
tis is gna b dryyyy
anw, i've decided i wna quit co and join track
if the lights are green on all 3 sides.
ya get wat i mean
the tchr's say yes, n the parents say yes.
cos frankly, i dnt think staying in co will do me much good
particularly since i'm thinking of track whn i'm in co?
like physically in co but mentally in track?
o.o
not tat i hate co
or it's bad
or i dnt like that commitment
or anything.
it's srsly a great cca.
i mean like srsly.
if any yr 1's read my blog, srsly, go for co,
if u're choosing any PA
BUT the thing tat made me decide,
the main thing
is tat
i cnt survive in PA or UG
cos for my whole primary sch life,
i've never ever done anything like performing
ive been like doing sports for like forever
and it practically makes me ME.
just like stella cnt live w/o bball
i cnt live w/o sports
and to stop track
i'll justt be killing half of myself
cos it's not like i can get ex netball team to have a game frequently
or not like i have a lot of time to play bball or vball
esp since those days tat i have time
the trackers and bballers have trng
so nobody to play also
and if i continue staying in PA
i'll lose myself
and all the stress and frustration is just gna keep exploding
cos idk
but sports is kinda like my outlet for these stuff
and i'll keep moodswinging
which i think eliss, stella and hongy will get fed up with
of course thr's other reasons why i wna quit
or stay
but i cnt just let go of part of my life tat has made up my personality.
so yupp!
just read this somewhere tho
it just got me thinking
but i haven't changed my decision yet.
'The best thing is what u think shld be done, the right thing is what needs to be done - when u think not just of you and how u feel, but also the extra stuff - who else is involved and wat's happened before and wat the rules say.'
I noe for sure tat wat i'm choosing is the best thing
but i dnt noe if it's the right thing
and i dnt noe if it's better to do the best thing
or the right thing.
i noe tat my decision to quit co will make ppl unhappy
particularly 2 parties.
my parents
they'll b disappointed and unhappy
cos they wanted me to take co to help w my MEP
and they dnt think track will do me any good
but obviously, i think otherwise
and the other party will proly b co ppl and mrwong???
idkkkkk.
cos apparently, our batch is the first batch tat his kinda managing
or bringing up...
yea. and i'm quitting? o.o
and the co members cos idk y. they just dnt want me too
i didn't ask for thier personal opinions
not even close to thm
at least not rlly
but i think i noe them well enough to anticipate their response
and i kinda think tat they're gettting sick of me
ponning co, sometimes to go for track o.o
oh well.
parents do have a big influence tho
i just hope it doesn't make me change direction
or be caught in a crossroad again :O
so anw.
td right?
actl, i hate td's timetable
all the subs are like so sucky.
except mayb maths and bio
they're the oni 2 subs i still kinda like?
math for pop quiz
i sit down thr stare stare stare at the ques
waste my time sia
in the end actl very easy
n i think i'm like damn tyco or smth larh
last yr maths like failing
cnt possibly be like this yr suddenly shoot up like crazy.
thn after tat did standard form
and it's like the MOST BORING CHAPTER EVER-.-
i dnt even understand how it can kinda aid us in life or smth
understand the concept but dnt noe how to apply it in everyday life
o.o
and the modulus wdv thingy seems so pointless
even tho it's easy to grasp :O
and ohmigosh larh
td mr wong suddenly went like
saying some stuff abt us like
'ya, u noe u all r like my kids like tat. all so young. u noe horh, i'm old enough to be ur father.'
i was like OMG blink.
thn some ppl started calculating sia
in the end we came up w tis
mrwong is like 27 tis yr
so we're 14
if he's our 'father'
thn meaning his 'wife' gave birth too us 14 yrs ago
which is whn he was 13
and thn right
ppl get married also cannot so fast give birth
so let's say it takes 3 yrs
so he got married whn he was 10
thn before get married must also go for date
so normally the least ppl date is 2-3 yrs i think
so meaning, he started dating his 'wife' whn he was 7-8
which is so ttly -.-
yahhh
and it sounds gross.
wdv! who cares.
n thn ltr math ended
thn science
rozana came in
n went too her wdv slides abt bacteria
with all the weird weird sci names
tat's bio for u
but i think it's the weird names tat make it cool lorh!!!!!
oh n eliss refused to go and beg for her phone bk frm rozana
but srsly, i think rozana'a being unreasonable
even teo chor howe will return ur phone latest at the end of the day de lorh
i was thinkin tat it wnt do to be like pissed
with rozana for confiscating eliss's phone n not returning
BUT THEN.
e other day i wanted to msg eliss
like rlly wna tlk to her
AND I CNT CONTACT HE BEC SHE DOESN'T HAVE HER PHONE
lao
it's super irritating sia
TSK.
nvm
thn recessssssss
go whr arh?
i think cafe bah
oh, no.
me and liss went to canteen
eat some sushi stuff
thn bk to class for PC
PC quite boring
it always is anw
except for the angel&mortal game:D
hahahhahaha.
hongy so sui.
LOL.
thn i was msg-ing in class
made my decision on changing cca to track
told my mom
and immediately got some rainstorm of unhappy comments
frm her
lao.
she made me damn pissed just through sms
pissed and emo
cos i srsly dnt feel like gg hm quarrel with her
and she VERY APPARENTLY dnt want me to quit
after PC went to the toilet
cried a bit
feel super sad larh
i mean they cnt even accept my decision with grace?
or at least dnt yell at me
it's not like i wna make my parents upset or anything
but i think they shld, well, respect my decision
n thn plpus they whole day bu shuang with me
it's ike gg home to a foreign place that's just NAMED home but doesn't FEEL home
:(((((((((((((((((((((((
fgt abt it larh
i think i'm better alr
thx hongy, liss n stella
but sometimes i feel like killing myself bec of tat kind of stuff
like the whole world is unhappy with me:((
tat's why i like staying in sch until damn late i guess
my friends make me feel btr.
anw
aft tat LA.
went back class late tan not happy, i guess
thn after tat in class the whole class keepp
playing with the plow word.
one say it's (plo)
the other person say it's (p-lao)
thn others say it's (pu-lau)
until ms tan damn confused lol
ownnnnneeeddddd
thn chi
didn't pay attention
most of the part
o.o
thn lesson over lo.
thn well stay bk till 6.45
organising some stuff from 2 plus to 5.35
o.o
hahaha
anw, tmr gna be sucky
like my erhu cher is DEFINITELY gna b unhappy w me
bec i didn't parc much
wanted to prac like evryday
thn my mom kept saying stuff tat piss me off
it's either i go yell back or keep my mouth shut
so i choose to ren inside me
and keep my mouth shut
but if i bu shuang
play instrument horh
i can just make ur ear pain playing the piano
n playing erhu arh?
i think i will just get damn frustrated
thn pull until the strings break i not surprised.
lollll.
now doing last min aural
:((((((((((((((((
shall try to finish o.o
